Anyone else have #anxiety attacks from being lazy?
I work best when I’m going going going but when it’s time for me to take a break I’m always anxious that I need to be working on something.
I need those lazy days for sure. It’s a proven fact that humans are not robots and cannot be on all the time…
Combatting those imbalanced feelings is a regular job for me. I understand that my anxiety is an exaggeration of what I really should feel about any situation, but it’s not as simple as “don’t worry about it”.
Here is the thing:
I’m home because of coronavirus, half time. Yes. There has been a pandemic, if you are reading this 20 years from now. lol.
I’m getting my full salary (thank god) because I am a teacher and there is no shortage of work for me right now. I’m doing that and writing books (2 MS completed in September), and marketing books that are already out and building a publishing company (interviewing authors, planning for anthologies, working on partnerships), helping my kiddo with remote classes, and cooking and cleaning (SO MUCH), yelling at my family about how messy they are… etc. etc.
So with all that… when I have a day that I just want to play Animal Crossing all day long, I actually feel guilty about that.
I think it’s because I want to maintain balance in my life and binge playing a video game all day is not my idea of balance.
On the flip side, I never feel bad when I work hard all day…
And here lies the problem. It’s just as bad for a human to over work as it is for them to over rest. Both cause massive problems for the human.
And here we go again: It’s all about balance. Will I ever feel like I’ve achieved it?
Stay tuned to find out. lol.