It’s time to talk about it.
At first, I thought I was scared to write horror. Everything else was like, eh, I could do that, with some practice and research of course, but Horror? No way I can be scary. Then I wrote the cutest little horror story for my short story collection and…
I was RELIEVED! I loved the story idea, I loved the characters and I thought it was moderately scary. lol. It may not really be but hey, I think so! I think, as an author, that’s the biggest thing. We have to think so or there is really nothing. We don’t have a leg to stand on if we are not confident.
So after I did that, I was like fuck yeah! I got this writing thing. I can write anything… Then I stopped short and was like:
“Anything Except Romance.”
Dun dun dunnnnn.
Romance is not really scary to me BUT I find romance unrealistic. In my own personal experience, romance isn’t real.
Not that I feel unloved personally. I’m in a super, solid relationship as I write this, but it ain’t romantic. I’ve never been in a romantic relationship and I don’t know anyone who has been in a romantic relationship.
Not romantic as portrayed in stories, at least.
I have also never been a cop, so it’s not the lack of experience that stops me from writing. I’ve never been in a haunted house, worked for a stock brokerage, been to space, caught an endangered alien being, etc. but I’ve written all these stories.
The true, deep down issue is that I DON’T want to lie. I don’t think romance is real and I don’t want to make up some crazy over the top lovey dovey bullshit. I wonder, without that, will it be romantic?
This brings up another experience issue I have with romance. I don’t watch romantic movies or read romance books because I don’t enjoy the genre. Is it fair to say that if you don’t enjoy a genre you shouldn’t write it? How ridiculous would a non-lover of romance look, writing a romance? Tell me please.
Before I go on, here is this:
Romance Writers of America says that there has to be a central love story to a romance novel and an “emotionally satisfying and optimistic ending.”Rebecca Graf – The Writing Cooperative
So, then I think of it a few ways…
because I AM WRITING A ROMANCE, damn it.
- I am planning to write a story that is true to me. I NEVER write for commercial success. I only write from the heart.
- A story that is true to me, may not conform to the romance genre completely… and I’m at peace with that.
- My story will have lots of love, tragedy and maybe some crime (cause that’s how I roll. lol).
- I will make sure romance/love/relationships are at the heart of my story.
- I will write a story that people can read and enjoy EVEN IF THEY DON’T LIKE ROMANCE. This is so important for me. I want all my books to appeal to lots of people, so I don’t write them to corner readers into the genre. My romance story may not genre hop, but I want them to feel open and available to all readers.
So, I’m facing my fears – the fear of writing a story that doesn’t hold up to the genre. The fear that true fans of a genre will boo me! lol.
I’ll do my best.